the ballad of such...

Present day, present time. Hahahahah.

Life is too short to mind someones own shit. Yet, this office mate of mine likes to spit shit when everyone is around. But the true reason for such, is still a mystery to me. It could be either be a sign of loneliness or the fear of being labeled as a weakling. I really pity such attitude, but thing is we can't choose our neighbors. So we either ignore them or try to throw back some of their shit. And the funny thing is when they learned that its their own shit. They go haywire, they just can't handle it.

Life is a fuck. We always meet new people who are either odd or too predictable. Yet some of us, would always carry on the burden of fucking things up. I mean, that is what makes them one incomplete piece of shit. They always group together and motivate themselves to be perfectly, yet they complain a lot. So why the fuck they always complain? I really don't know but it really shows, they tend not to finish things up.

Life is a joke. Some of us, tend to draw pride from ourselves, and learned how we can talk shit about others when in reality we are just talking about ourselves. We lost it, the genuine feeling that is real.

i tell you what i think of THIS(spelled backwards)

Present day, Present time. HaHaHaHaH. Yeah, I know got a lot of I-dont-need-this-cd's. It's supposed to be free, I only needed a copy but here they are...considered as junk.... I once did use this pile of junk. Same color, same kind...its nice when you insert a light source in the middle...quite a nice lamp...quite a nice gift...

for the past years none of whom i've known do i consider a friend. All of them...let's just say most of them wouldn't tell me that i'm in deep trouble. They would just stand and watch as I walk the line of fooling myself..needless to say...i dont need them...happy hypocrites...

A lot of us.. consider love as something so vague..that we use it as an alibi to do foolish things..during the foolish times...yes, its vague enough to be meaningless...can you even spell responsibility and honesty? dont forget respect...and you tell the world that you and a bunch of so called lovestruck individuals..can be moved and be considered a lunatic...grow-up and carry on with what you have..

People are people. And I find some of them quite amusing... there are some that use numbers to call attention, some use someone to feel good..but honestly...it's pathetic.. why need some..cant you stand alone? you spell shit that you think you coined it. And tell the world that youre the bearer of what is supposed to be...you cant even eat your shit..cant even turn your ass and say i'm IT. keep fooling yourself and you'll wind up the same...as most of us do...another Yet-Another..

I hate sundays, the music, awkwardness, and the feeling that something bad will happen amidst the temporary happiness. Just keep my guard up..and refrain..refrain...

dead memories in my head

Present day,Present time. HaHaHaHaH. I miss the shoreline, the sand and the....BEACH of course.. We all lie regardless of principle, religion, and belief. Its just a matter of believing the lie, believing that each lie we take, each lie we tell will go accordingly to what's in our mind. But we all know that we are lousy liars. We tend to leave a spec of truth behind or a dash of what lies we made. Just a tip for you hire a new "you" dont trust yourself.

Too much stress for this week. Reason? hmm i dont know.. besides the deliverables, work load, side projects and doing old stuff for old shits...

I've done my part...
and my parting words... decide dont choose

thank you doc bailey

Present day,present time. It seems that i'm not the one who needs more of lil' how to handle myself better here. I'm in a crappy situation but i'm okay, in fact i see things more clearly now and realize my life so slow..dragging... and I should enjoy it...hahahaha

relationships are relationships. You need someone to take the shit off you and for you.. Im thankful to a handful of bullshit individuals you really take the shit off me.. thanks guys..you really know how feck up my life...

Im happy thanks...
ei you...please dont throw your life around.. look at me...im looking at you...

maybe its opened but we know who can really close this deal..

guns and sundays

Present day, present time. HaHaHaHaH. Most my entire life I've been only to Davao funny thing is, even in Davao I didnt have enough time and luxury to measure the entire land area of it.hahahahaha. As far as I could remember this was my first glimpse of buhangin, catitipan, deca homes etc. I was transporting one thing that I love doing...computers. Well sad to say this said computer is one of the few that died infront of me. I think(that a professional opinion..hahaha) the processor is burned or the board been burned by the processor.

Sunday, march 29 2009 2pm. I witness something that has been happening here in our place. Man A wears red shirt, Man B wears red hat, Man C rides a motorbike. Man A and Man B were talking. Man C arrives, Man B fires his gun to Man A. I heard about 3 shots, Man A was down. Were was I? 100 meters from the scene. What did I do? cross the street and went home as what I always do. What did I feel? that moment? odd, in a sense that I knew what happen. But I didnt act, I just go the way i always do. In fact when I arrive home. all I did was watch TOPgears episode on my pc. What can I say? hmm, since Man A and Man B were talking they knew each other. What were they talking about I dont know a debt perhaps. What I speculate was Man A and Man B were on one team, either NPA, or extremists, or plain Man B was drug depended, Man A was the executioner. I am alive, thats good for me. But thing is bad things happen when good people do nothing.

I still hate my job. After two years of shit. Come to realize the only ones who make it to the top are the ones who eats shit. The workplace is an hostile enviroment. Relationships are formed and are destroyed. Infidelity is no secret. Sex is a means to gossip. boss likes to egotrip. Boss I am willing to exchange boots here. So fuck up your ass, fuck up, you tell shitty things that we shall do but you cant shit like us. You tell us that you sleep less than us. but you dont feel us. so fuck up, listen up. I respect you no matter who you are. But that is within the boundaries of the building.Outside I am, who I am and I dont give a shit. If you like eating my shit..be it.

hear ye,hear ye!

Present day, present time. HaHaHaHaH. I'm 27,suffering the mid 20's crisis. thinks like a sexually pre-occupied 18 year old, acts like a 21 noob, cries like a 50 year old grand dad for the first time. Well, I thank thee for all of yee who remembered.

Whats up?!@#. Got a job but not a career. Still living with my folks, and cherishing the moment that their son is bringing some food on the table on sundays and tuesdays.

so it craves again.

Present day, present time. HaHaHaHaH!. Currently listening to gNr's november rain thankin' that its nice when someone is out there bleeding out with you. Its nice to sleep after you bleed out the extra current in your circuitry. HaHaHaHaH!.

Work been hell. Still looking for my true calling. Still looking for the piece of me that makes me tick. I was eating siopao at charlie's dinner with a friend asking me what does my future looks like. Not to sound serious I just said "maybe abroad". Yes, friends, relatives of mine are slowly conquering the global market. From singapore to dubai and canada.. dont forget New jersey. I remember someone told me....well,almost every does. You get nothing from staying in Davao,furthermore you get nothing staying in the Philippines. They maybe right, look the non-stop bullcrap that is showbiz-politics that we have nowadays. Spending money on bullshit session on someone's shit. We need more bridges and roads here dearest bullshit senators not another shit-digging-crab-mentality stint. You call your job public service when all you do is public stint.



Malagkit. When I was a boy every sunday or saturday I would always accompany my parents to BANGKEROHAN, PALENGKE. Always bring some childhood memories.HaHaHaHaH!


Manny pacman fighting Golden boy. A part of me says "youve grown into some circus I just hope one day youll be beating the crap of some wrestler. Com' on What in hell are you thinking this is overboard your like feeding yourself to the den of lions they know that you cant resist dela hoya..its your pride...think..and by the way..dont ever run for public office..SORRY!"..but then again a part of me says " dont get down easily...one two three uppercut...his is slow...."

ode to november

Present day, present time. Hahahaha. Life is another thing that we can remember, we can cherish and we can see coming. Its another form of us that is us. Us to others, us to ourselves. My life been so boring and blurry but all I can think of is go to the other point in this case siopao and dutch mill. hahahahaha.

Every november my family goes to visit my brothers grave. It became a family affair between the four of us, make it five in spirit. I arrived around 11am better late than never. The grave was white and clean and there were flowers. Past is past, you cant rewrite the bible. All you can do is read it and make a novel on how it change your life.

Nothing compare to old friends,nothing. Thanks guys till we meet again. Next time Pizza tau.

so sick and tired for june

Present day, present time. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Yesterday after countless times of trial and error i finally got to establish internet connection on my room computer. It brings back memories of splicing wires, logic circuits and copper wires. Well now im enjoying the beauty and madness of what is linux. Pages pop up fast, no fear of viruses,it looks clean and new. But as a noob on this I just cant leave on some programs that run on windows and installing programs takes some time(using synaptic).

Every sunday as a stress reliever I promise myself to draw. My first love, since I was a child this was my solace. I spent around 5 minutes of my time(hahahaha) with my ever handy dandy 7 colored crayons. I draw what ever comes to mind. I know im not good at it. But it just so good to see something you created. though it seem trash its my own trash not yours.

Pacquiao-marquez II

Present day present time.PACMAN WINS by DECISION!!!! hahahahaha.... PARA AKONG NANUOD NG "KNOCK-OUT" ...hahahahaha

NARUTO the movie???

Present day, present time. HAHAHAHA. NARUTO THE MOVIE??? how I wish there would be one. It would nice to See the giant frog...hahahahaha... naruto doing some RA-SEN-GAN!!!... Anyway this one hell of a COSPLAY. Keep it up cdrdj.

Rain+sun=HELL. Just hate the weather, it would really make my eyes go red(crying) and my nose go running..hahahahaha..Need to gulp in some vitamin C and move this fat abs out of my system.

Between the syntax error

Present day, present time. Hahahaha. Cafe Mediterranean stands along Sales street within the chymes compound. What I like about them. Hmm, Gyro's to be exact(un lamb..first time kumain ng ganyan). And the Pita bread with Humos. Pizza-wise , again its with a mediterranean twist so you will be looking a lot of "talong" hahahah.. Anyway, I love to go food trippin. Its where my money usually goes. From barbeque,kebabs, balot, siopaos,pizza,pasta,ice cream and bulalo. Anything that would satisfy my big intestine. So far besides food its the ambiance I'm after. Don't forget the company after all whats food when your dining all alone. So far Piccobello pa rin!!

Usually after payday..eheemmm. DCLA is the place to be. Why ask, obviously they sell Pirated DVD, appliances that are obviously china made. Well its were you can find Ipod clones like Sany, Pensonic. Mobile phones with TV tuners. And pizzaroll..hahahaha..again pagkain ulit!!!

Still planning what to buy myself this Christmas. Iphone( heavy!! ka nga ng globe posible!), itouch(pwedi na rin!), or any kind of phone(un samsung or n-something). The tv-tuner/mobile phone would be nice, though they said its really about the service after you bought the product. And I agree with them.

After 2 years it's been release the 2005 yearbook. Darn it took them 2 whole years just to make this bullcrap. I still remember the girls the night-outs the projects the girls and the girls. Nothing beats college. Though my stalking ground was the library. hahahaha

productivity wise(edited oct 10)

Present day, present time.HAHAHAHAHA. Paperbag from Jolibee. I love b2,c2. If your a regular visitor at the RED-BEE. You know what I mean.

Its been almost a year(a month to go its november again). So many memories with regards to november....work related of course...

Still cant start my side projects. So many things to do, so little time. Hope I will start something productive next week. Though funding is good, again so little time. Its so hard to be a jack-of-all-trades-master-of-none(self proclaimed!!).

Finally Ive bought a copy of the prince of tennis series(pirated version).....mada mada dane...


"I'm not even afraid of death.I'm just afraid that there might be no sex after death."-Sen. Miriam Santiago 09/28/2007

-still sucks..hahahaha

rejuvinating potion

Present day,present time. HAHAHAHAHA!. To all the people who have been to my batcave(room that is), thanks for the memories. Anyway, They surely notice something unique but not rare. My room Such a mess.Clothes here,wires there,mess everywhere. Don't forget the dust. Ladies and gents, this is a picture of my cabinet. Top floor,all the clothes old and new. Second from top ,bunch of Fhm, pens, my little buddha on the center. Third from the top is my cd collection. On the lower left is my calendar.

Its been almost 9 months but my body has finally reach the limit. Committed a crime against my principles. I was absent, my back/neck aches cold sweat. Hopefully after this three days of nothingelse but sleep and eat and dvd. I will be alright.

I would to thank to those who share precious seconds to send me a hi ,reply and chit chat. Thanks to Nadj for those ym moments, to trocio para sa mga tech/porn links, kay wendell para sa kabuang, kay lore pasalubong ko gikan singapore, kay jane and plains and prints na discount nako kuhaon nako na sa SM. Sa mga chikka persons.Paul lada.I-off ang imong auto message char-char. kay lyka hatagan kita ug link sa mga movies i-download nako. kay nette, thanks sa time. hmm, sa mga ka-text nako gkan-sun-smart-globe.Specially kay kathleen.

Politics had been so sick here. Erap convicted. And now Zte. Whats next...CHRISTMAS!!! HAHAHA

50 things about guys that girls DONT know(source:some others blog..lol)

1. Guys hate sluts.

2. "Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.

3. Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.

4. Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.

5. Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.

6. Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.

7. Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're goin for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-
how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.

8. A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.

9. Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.

10. Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.

11. Guys get jealous easily.

12. Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.

13. Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.

14. Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.

15. Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.

16. Girls are guys' weaknesses.

17. Guys are very open about themselves.

18. It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.

19. Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.

20. If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.

21. A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.

22. Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.

23. Guys will brag about anything.

24. Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful. If a guy uses that, he likes you.

25. Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.

26. Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.

27. Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.

28. Try to be as straightforward as possible.

29. A guy has to experience rejection, because if he's too-good-never-been-busted, never been in love and hurt, he won't be mature and grown up.

30. If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.

31. No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.

32. Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.

33. Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.

34. If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spazzing inside.

35. When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.

36. When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."

37. Guys don't really have final decisions.

38. If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know something's up.

39. If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.

40. When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.

41. Guys like femininity not feebleness.

42. Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.

43. A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.

44. Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.

45. Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.

46. Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.

47. Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.

48. Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.

49. A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.

50. No guy can handle all his problems by his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it

u would be surprised at how true this is

ambidextrous,

ac/dc- transformers

Present day,present time...hahahaha..... After a week of waiting, finally ..finally watched transformers. Its really nice to see some robots do some back-flip-aero-body(chassis) twisting-moves. I cant really tell if it was real or Im just overwhelm by the film itself. Was it worth my 65 php? yes!, Michael and Steven did some hell of special effects. Not to mention some on-screen advertisement by nokia(its from finland not japan) General motors' cars, and the Strokes(shirt worn by sam W.)

story-wise?? was there a story??lol..its all about the cube/all spark...if there be another sequel it be a prequel....I like to see how Megatron did destroy Cybertron. Since the cube was destroyed, but starscream did escape...I really cant tell..we cant..hahahahaha

ROCK PAPERS SCiZZORX

Present day,present time....hahahaha
nothing much..took some personality something...hmm, sounds somewhat true...

You Are Paper

Crafty and creative, you are able to adapt freely to almost any situation. People tend to underestimate you, unless they've truly seen what you are capable of. Deep down, you're always scheming and thinking up new plans. Your mind is constantly active. You are quite capable of anything you dream of. You can always figure out a way to get what you want. You can wrap a rock person up in your sheet of trickery. A scissor person can sneak up and cut you to pieces. When you fight: No one can anticipate your next move If someone makes you mad: You'll attack them mercilessly when they're unprepared

Are You Rock, Paper, or Scissors?

INVISIBLE

Present day,nccc mall. The line was long the tickets that were sold are for the 10pm slot.Its was frustrating,bought food and drinks yet we know that its impossible to watch "transformers" now. What most of us do,watch some alternate film. And yes we did and the title of the film..."invisble".

It was some-kind-of-tear-jerker-makes-you-a-little-mushy, pretty good for a concept life and death..hahaha.. Hero got beaten up and left to rot. Hero goes to ghost mode,realizing that he is still alive tries to communicate to everyone. luckily the only person who can sense him is the same person who made him half dead. They begin to unravel the truth,and all and eventually leading to her own death. Well the ending was quite cheesy, keeps me wondering how did she bring back the life of the hero she wasnt a witch or something.

The films music did made a difference. It would affect you somehow. Well one thing I know next week will be transformers. HOPE SO!

my take on SPIdamang

well,to start off i watch spiderman 3 at nccc mall of davao. cause probably its my choice.and ive been wondering why in hell all cinemas been showing one film. did they project that it be such a box office hit.with the promotions/toys well,i dunno.

the introduction somehow saying to me,it be the last.you could see characters from the last 2 films.anyway,much of the film spidey striving to keep himself from being peter parker and spidey. the supposedly proposal.I give a *sigh to that the ring and blessing from her aunt.and the french resto scene..huhuhuhu..we all can relate.anyway,at least in the end they were friends.another *sigh....sandman another *sigh just for her daughter he rise up to rob a bank.

and here comes venom....ah...somehow..his part to small...shit!

highlights..well the fight scene between spidey and harry..i was gawking for that 5 minute or so..

just hate when parker..suits up with the his symbiote..the grease lighting..the "fever". dancing the girls..his crazy moves...is that suppose to be funny..well..i did laugh..and how come jus half the face of harry was burnt..he should be disentigrated ..

the final fight was well to much for me..the drama and how harry came to the rescue..the giant sandman..

well its suppose to be film for all...so it did serve its purpose...somehow... 2.5 stars...but if you really know spidey..you probably hate it..hahahaha

ITS BEEN A WHILE

its been awhile since ive blog...medyo bc man jud...had work na..had no money pa...and had the fastest connection in the land...dialUP..26.4 kbps...care of PLDT VIBE(lame)
from here on this page will be my emotion dumpsite..sort of..~!!! kudos to all the people who had change my life..no matter how little..ill be posting here when i do have my dayoff..